It all seems so confusing. I wanna care but I don't wanna care. I want to bother but I don't wanna bother... I seem always to be wanting to know stuff about them. But I don't wanna spoil it for them. I think it may be jealousy. Maybe it's not. Lalala~ I'm not sure. Guess I'm just curious? Haha

But heard that it's over. What I really feel inside is that I'm not happy or sad or jealous or angry or super glad or anything. Why? In fact, when I saw it, I should have been very very happy. But I'm not. Why? I see her every morning in school and it really sucks. It sucks like HELL. I always pretend I never ever seen her before and imagine I don't even know her. Well it's true, I didn't know her until 'that' happened.

Why must she always walk directly in front of me or behind me before flag-raising? It's so freaky. It's like she would punch me any minute or something. Hope she won't tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or the day after tomorrow tomorrow or anythin.

Treat it as I DON'T even KNOW you. I shouldn't have known you actually. It ain't fair.

You pulled me into this. I don't blame you but I really wish we didn't end up that way.