During music today, I was like slacking. Cause it was the recorder test from Sin Yi all the way to reg 39. I had mine last wk n it was so freaky. Haa. After Mrs Lee was in the other room, I went out and took a stroll ALL the way back to class and took the half-writen script for English and my stupid library books Kaya asked us to borrow for reading. Wonder if it's overdue. Lol. Then I went to music room n put down my script n file den slowly go out and strolled 2 the library to drop the bks.

Cordelia was so excited abt the recorder playin and she kept playing n playing while I wrote the script. Heyy CORDELIA KNOWS HOW TO PLAY MAGNIFICENT AND MADE ME GLAD ON THE RECORDER! Ain't that cool! I was half sleeping during Hmt n Wangyue go ask me write a sentence for chuan1 hong2 zhao2 lu4. urgh. So irritated and didn't know how 2 form a sentence, so I kinda copy fr the book and put, wo3 zai4 gong1 yuan2 kan4 jian4 yi4 xie1 chuan hong zhao lu de gu1 niang1. So crappy n Jocina was complaining too, cause she was called to do a sentence also.

I tell u MR JAMES TEO is so damn lame. During the free period for CA, he was saying that there WAS NO SUCH THING AS A FREE PERIOD n kept insisting that our teacher must have left some hmwrk or work for us. Den we were like HELLO??! IT'S A FREE PERIOD FOR US MR TEO! Den he didn't believe den he went to ask Yanty. Den Yanty explained and in the end she said yes, it is a FREE period n only that if we dun make so much noise den it's alrite. So Mr Teo kinda shut up.

But actually I realise he's quite ALRite.. In a sense that you can ask him 2 help you do some parts of your dnt. Oh, and I helped Janice go vacuum the saw dere. So fun! Haha. The Lit screening was so nice. The last part where the Ms Michkin becomes a chimney sweep instead of a 'headmistress' was funny. And kinda familiar too. Reminds me of Daddy Day Care where the headmistress goes become a traffic director. That was nice too. Jocina and lots of ppl cried. But I was actually to preoccupied with my thoughts to get emotional over a movie.

I mean that my whole mind was not ENTIRELY on that movie. I mean seeing all those wonderful parts made me wonder if the girl who was sitting just less than 10 m away from me, 2nd row, was thinking wad I was thinking. Maybe she wasn't. I mean what small things could just stir up feelings like dis. *URGH* oh yeah. I FAILED my hist. Miss Lee called me up to ask me why my whole qn 1 was repitition. The whole 2 pgs. I got 3/7 L2 for that only. She asked me if there was anything that happened to me on that day and I was like No... Sheesh. I guess she's one of the few teachers who know that ppl r actually troubled. Not even saying that I didn't study or something like that. She said I went totally out of point.

Sigh. I wish some one would actually help me. So that I'll change my mind and get me back on track to study and concentrate on my streaming. Ann is actually wrong. I've always taken my studies quite seriously. But it's just that I can't realle concentrate n put my mind on just studying alone, rather den the comp or thinking abt _______ n crying. I do cry. I almost cried during dinner 2dae, but I just rushed 2 my room, stopped all the 'almost-coming-out' tears n went back. I mean it's very hard to keep it all inside you. You just have the feeling that you don't wish to tell anyone anything. It's so hard. I mean if you ask me to act and cry, I can do that almost immediately.

It's lucky I have this strong emotion barrier det blocks all the real feelings to be revealed. I hope it won't break anytime soon...